My eyes are getting old – I don’t quite understand how that happened. But I’m having noticeable problems driving at night and when you add in steady rain, I can hardly see the lane markings at all. That makes it hard for me to know where to point the car to keep from being hit by other people or to keep from hitting them. It’s nerve-wracking. Now that the clocks have changed, it’s dark before I leave the office at 5pm and I face this even in the commute, but there are so many people driving that I can “go with the flow” and it’s not usually a problem.
Tonight I came home at 10pm in the pouring rain on streets that were largely deserted, and it hit me with a wave of panic that I couldn’t see the lanes on the road. I hate that it’s happening, that I feel insecure driving when I need the wheels to go where I need to go. I just try and make sure I stay relatively close to home and familiar streets when twilight falls and when the rain, sleet, ice or snow starts up, I stay off the roads if I possibly can. The daylight is manageable; it’s the dark that brings insecurity and discombobulation.
Somehow I don’t think it’s going to get easier as I get older.