Random Thoughts of a Disordered Mind

Appreciating Sunlight


Hot sunAhhh, Saturday. I am so ready for the weekend, for the chance to putter around and wake up slowly and be in the sunlight. Yesterday was cold, dark, and heavy with rain that left big cold puddles, leading in turn to cold wet feet. On the other hand, it wasn’t snow.

I have seasonal affective disorder and days without sunlight make me all lethargic and squirrely, with short attention span and crankiness. I leave for work at 7:15, just about when the sun is rising, and I come home around 4:30, which is lighter now than it was a month ago (yayyy!). My office is in the basement of our building and it does have a small window up top that looks out at people’s feet as they go by. On a dark gray day, though, it doesn’t help much.

By the time I get to Saturday, especially in mid-winter, I’m feeling light-deprived and ready to soak up the sun. Even in the cold of winter, when hanging around outside isn’t high on my list to do, the sunlight matters.

So here I sit, sipping a cup of coffee and looking at the sun highlighting the tree outside my big windows, watching Buffy on cable. Tessie let me sleep in an extra hour before she decided it was time for breakfast and the curtains in the study are now open so light is pouring in from everywhere. It’s definitely worth the extra $50 to have a corner unit that feels more like a house when the sun comes in.

We played Bird already, Tessie’s new favorite toy. She loves chasing dangly things and this one is amazing – a 3′ long slender rod with a stretchy string attached and at the end, a feather contraption that sounds like wings flapping when it moves. Tessie loooooooooves it and she runs and jumps like a kitten as she plays. Her eyes get all black – “Stepford Cat” as one of my friends calls it – and she quivers and then pounces or leaps to catch this thing that’s invaded her house. It’s fun to watch.

Time to go make breakfast – scrambled egg on a potato roll with pudding yogurt on the side – and then get dressed and go out to enjoy the sun.

2 thoughts on “Appreciating Sunlight

  1. Snowed in yesterday – girls were very sorry that school was cancelled –
    first – it was a half day (and now willhave to be made up with a full day)
    second – dress down day
    third – they were playing saints bingo (actually very fun – play it school wide on the intercom system and give facts about the saints for each call – if you have bingo your teacher rushes to the phone and calls the office)

    I decided it would be a good day to hand wash all my bras – as I was staying in my PJ’s all day. I got ready to go to pilates/yoga – and they were all still in the tub soaking – rinsed one out – blotted with a towel – and wore it – WET – to class. Yes, very cold on the way there – but didn’t show through my layers – and once I got warmed up in class – it felt good.

  2. I assume that you must do the overseas thing on line somehow? It doesn’t seem like something that the little girls would know how to do (or perhaps we just don’t do it here) – if you don’t mind leaving a link or note with the instructions – that would be great.

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