Yikes, I just realized how long it’s been since I posted anything. Honestly, it’s not you, it’s me. And the rain. Every day is like every other day and has been for so many weeks that we thought we spotted a big wooden Ark with a bunch of animals on it. Every day it’s been between 65-71 degrees, with either drizzly rain or downpours. Everywhere you look there are spots of color where umbrellas bloom instead of flowers. The one pictured is mine. I love it, it’s cheerful and pink, but it’s heavy. At least that keeps it from turning inside out in the wind.
It’s been a stressful spring and summer, dealing with budget cuts and staff layoffs. I was afraid that I would start eating over it, since I tend to be a very emotional eater and Lord knows that stress sets me off most times. But somehow I’ve been able to hold on to my WW foodplan. It almost feels easy and intuitive and as of last Saturday, the total is 11.6 since rejoining this spring. Food and eating are the only things I really can control now, and holding on to that makes it easier to deal with stress and out-of-control-ness in other places.
But progress is and will be slow. My metabolism isn’t what it used to be pre-menopause and exercising is very difficult with bone-on-bone joint pain. I’m starting to have problems with the “good knee” (which isn’t all that good anyway). I’m way more worried about the knees than I am about my appearance.
Which is leading me back to considering weight loss surgery, the lapband method. I have two friends in different parts of the country who have WLS scheduled within the next few weeks. I know others who have been successful, and others who have relapsed and regained much of their weight. I know that some of you think that WLS is cheating and taking the easy route. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, their own path. This may not be one that I will ultimately take, but at my request, my doctor was putting in a referral to a bariatric surgeon at the university hospital to start the process of asking the questions and see if this is a decision I really want to make.
On the plus side, the weight would come off fairly quickly, at least an initial chunk of it. I don’t have a weight goal, I’m not looking to be skinny – I will never be skinny. But I do want to walk with less pain and know that knee replacement surgery is in my future. I can do that more safely and with better results over a longer time period if I am not carrying so much weight.
So, that’s what’s going on in my life. Work, watching my weight, getting ready for my parents to come up from Texas on Saturday for an 8 day visit.