In Between Week

The week between Christmas and New Years is weird. The world of academia calls it Intersession, the time between the fall and spring semesters. Students have the time off to play, sleep late, visit friends, shop, have Christmas. Librarians never were quite that lucky and I usually ended up working during that weird empty week when I could turn up the volume on my music, wear relaxed clothes, and plow through piles of stuff.

It’s also the week In Between Christmas excess and New Year’s endless commercials for diet plans and exercise programs. When you are reminded that you ate too much for the last two months and it’s time to buckle down and lose those pounds again. Those resolutions are usually excessively optimistic, at least mine have been, and they fall by the wayside sometime by the end of January.

Last year I ended the year signing up for Noom on December 31st and started January 1st. My goal was to get healthier. I didn’t have a weight goal in mind but I’m ending the year down 65 lbs from where I started. But I’ve been in between on that, too. I went great guns in the beginning and the weight fell off. Things derailed in June after I injured my knee and I’ve been v-e-r-y s-l-o-w-l-y losing more. I mean V-E-R-Y S-L-O-W-L-Y. But for the most part, I’ve at least maintained the weight loss and gotten comfortable in a smaller size. I picked up two 20-lb jugs of cat litter today and could hardly lift them; knowing I’ve lost yet ANOTHER one is hard to imagine how I moved.

But I’m tired of just being in one place. And I do have a goal for 2021: to lose 25 lbs. That’s one pound every 2 weeks, and that’s doable. It won’t happen by just thinking it would be a good idea. Monday I’m stopping at the gym to get set up with 6 weeks of physical therapy for said bad knee. I’m counting on this to help jump start a more active year, knowing what I can safely do to strengthen my muscles and do more cardio with less fear of further injury or falling.

I’m no longer doing Noom, instead using MyFitnessPal to build and track recipes and food. But I still have an active subscription and I’m going to ask my goal specialist to restart me at Week 1 *again* since the articles are full of rah! rah! enthusiasm and motivating energy. I continue to wear my pedometer and pay attention to steps.

In 2008 I wrote: “I don’t want to diet. I want to eat sensibly in moderation, to enjoy a variety of food, to ease the stress on my knees, to be comfortable in my body and with myself.” Those words still apply. That’s what I want. I want the weight of The Weight off my shoulders so I can just BE and not be obsessed with food every waking minute. I’m not there, but I’m closer.

Here’s to getting out of 2020 – the pandemic Covid isolation year – and moving out of In Between Time and going back to making progress.