Six weeks ago I went to the gym and weighed in for their No Gain Campaign. The goal was to motivate us to not gain weight over the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays when usually foods (and sweets) abound. I did a lot of crazy stuff (remember the 14 dozen cookies?) but in spite of ups and downs, I thought I’d held my own. This week was the final weigh-in. On Monday I stopped at the gym with my physical therapy referral and hopped on the scale to see if I needed to give it a few more days before it was official. Much to my surprise, considering that it was after lunch and I was wearing shoes, I’m down 3 lbs since my weight on November 18th. They’ll notify winners next week but I’m already a winner, whether I get a reward or not.
UPDATE: I won an Amazon gift card! My favorite present 🙂
My Boston Weight Watcher leader Arlene Lewis was inspirational and motivating, and I loved her. She sent out weekly emails with motivational tips and recipes to a huge mailing list. In that time before Facebook groups and omnipresent cell phones, it was an important way to stay connected and on track on the week between meetings.
One thing she said often was that if you gain some pounds but get right back on track, those pounds are just visiting and will leave soon. If you pretend the gain didn’t happen, those pounds settle in and stick around.
This morning I stepped on the scale to see a 4 lb. drop from yesterday. While it was hard when those pounds jumped on this week, I buckled down and made good choices for the last two days, even though my ability to exercise was limited by back and knee pain. Today I found that those pounds were indeed just visiting. I admit it was a relief to see them gone.
I miss Arlene and this week discovered that she passed away in 2018. How did I not know that? The best way I know to honor her memory is to remember her and the things she passed on. Now is the time to put them into action. Her many WW recipes are easily adaptable to Noom and I have bunches of them here on this blog.
I threw out food yesterday. The important part was the almost-full box of individual bags of Skinny Pop Popcorn recently purchased at Sam’s. I could have found someone to give them to, but it seemed important and symbolic to put them in the trash.
There was nothing wrong with the popcorn. I knew how to count it and enjoyed a little bit of “normal”. Except I forgot that my normal snacking was abnormal, and the popcorn led to other things like cookies or eating an English muffin for dinner because I loved the jam. Which is now completely eaten up – it was wonderful! – but I’m not buying more of it.
I looked back at my Noom food logs to see what I ate back in the beginning when I was starting and extra careful and motivated. Popcorn wasn’t anywhere in there, and I didn’t miss it. I ate lots of green grapes (which I don’t even like but they were satisfying) and individual boxes of roasted red pepper soup for snacks, and learned that if I plan and balance my meals, I didn’t really eat snacks – and didn’t miss them.
It’s also time to cook. Back in January I cooked and stocked up the freezer, partly in anticipation of pandemic shortages but also to make sure I had plenty of easy to grab food that fit Noom. I’ve actually eaten most of the prepared things and need to restock with chili, stew, meat sauce, chicken teriyaki, and soup. I can make another batch of gazpacho to eat or drink as a snack or before a meal to add veggies
So today I’m making chili in the crockpot and inventorying the freezer and pantry before making a shopping list. I need to see what I have and work out a plan for cooking as well as organizing the freezer so I can find what goes in there instead of just shoving them in the front.
Also today I’m off to the appliance store to buy a new microwave since mine conked out yesterday. It’s probably at least 12 years old so I shouldn’t be surprised, but since I use it all the time, this requires rethinking what I eat until the new one can be installed. Probably salad – sigh, I’m sick of salad – but you eat that cold.
But first, thank you all for the hugs and comments and kind words to my hard day post. They helped more than you know.
I’ve been in a stuck place for quite a while now where my weight and body are concerned. I know what to do, and I wanted to want to do it, but I just didn’t. I finally got tired of it and decided to get my act together and take a step. The one I chose was to go back to Weight Watchers, which I did last weekend. I’m not particularly concerned about time frame or goals; I just want to refocus and take one step at a time to get healthier.
One part of that was sitting down and creating a new thought collage. I used to make these every 6-12 months, or to mark a particular point in my journey. Some were happy, others full of rage and pain. Although I’d cut out things a year or more ago, I never got around to finishing the collage, which is the final part of owning the thoughts and feelings.
I collected some magazines and cut stuff out yesterday, adding in some that I found in the envelope of previously snipped pieces. Most I couldn’t use because I’m simply not in the same place anymore. This is a much healthier place to be.
Last night I wrote a blog post on being the fat one. But once I had it out of my system, I saw how overly whiny it was, not to mention self-absorbed. My friend Phyllis calls it navel gazing and she’s right. I deleted the post this morning.
So let’s try this again.
I had an epiphany of sorts last night (though this is Advent, not Epiphany, so maybe it needs a different name). I just agreed to chair the program committee for my national association’s annual conference in 2011. It will be a ton of work but also a lot of fun. I’ve served on the committee before as a member and certainly have attended most of the conferences since joining years ago, so feel pretty prepared as to content.
But I do have a previous experience chairing a national conference for a different organization. When I finished that year and stood up in front of the gathering to talk about the program, I was at my highest weight in my life. I had allowed the program committee work and stress to take over and I ate and ate to help me deal. When I came down from the podium to my seat, I vowed that I did not want to feel as bloated and uncomfortable the following year when I chaired the entire conference.
That was my turning point. I joined WW within two months and had lost 67 lbs by the following spring when I went to my meeting. The motivation wasn’t to LOOK better, though certainly that was part of it. But really it was about how I felt and dealt with stress. Eating better and getting regular exercise (what a concept to pair those up!) made a difference.
So now I’m facing the same type of situation. Because they are so similar, it’s easier for me to look back and say, hmmm, remember then? remember what you felt and said and did? Why not try it now, too? My goal is to lose 10% of my current weight by July 2010 when I have my first “stand up in front of people to talk about program” activities, with the bulk of the stress coming after that point. I want good but not obessive habits back in place and a realistic plan. I think I found it.